save me

[isobel daniella caulfield]

thank you dereck, for coming over the other night.
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[dereck michael nolan]

"...izzy. oh... no problem, are you alright? you have a mean right hook though, and some sharp nails. [ laughs a small bit ] Heh.."

[isobel daniella caulfield]

oh dear god! what happened? i don't remember hitting you!

[dereck michael nolan]

"Nah, just you just dug your nails into my arm while I was trying to hold you back from killing someone. By the point, you were flailing your arms around and hit me. Haha. My camera got a little damaged too... but as long as you're alright, that's all that matters."

[isobel daniella caulfield]

sorry about the camera. not gonna apologize for the nails or anything else. you should have just let me kill her. that's all i wanted to do with the snide bitch.

[dereck michael nolan]

"Well, I was not about to just let you get yourself arrested. You were piss drunk, and going to jail for murder, is not really suiting for you! Sorry I stopped you from murdering someone."

[isobel daniella caulfield]

why not, i wouldn't have been the only person in the slammer that night. and i wouldn't have killed her, just fucked her face up. though i was pretty drunk. i don't think too many people were thrilled with me being piss drunk.

[dereck michael nolan]

"Izzy... [ sighs ] Alright then, sorry for stopping you from getting hurt. You couldn't even stand up straight! That whole night was a mess... I got a few nice shots, but half of them are people going nuts."

[isobel daniella caulfield]

dereck, i wouldn't have gotten hurt. i would have smashed her face up pretty good though. i was standing up just fine! alright, that is a lie. i was staggering everywhere. i am fairly certain that jared and randi knew that this was going to happen. there was too much for it not to.

[dereck michael nolan]

"Alright, sorry for inferring then. Consider yourself free of me then. [ sighs ] anyway, you're welcome for the other night, glad i could help in whatever way I did. probably none, but whatever. i'm not really sure what else to say, or what else i can help you with. sorry you're depressed, but drinking yourself to death isn't doing yourself or anyone else any good. Shit happens, sometimes it's just time to move on.."

[isobel daniella caulfield]

i just thanked you for interfering! i don't want to be free of you dereck. don't you get that? [ sighs ] i am not depressed, and i was doing really well with not drinking. that bitch just gets under my skin, so i drank a little more than i should have. you're right though, maybe i just need to forget everything and move on. you keep forgetting this is the first time that i have done this and i don't know how to do it.

[dereck michael nolan]

"No, I don't really see that at all... you seem pretty determined to push me away. I understand, you don't like her, she's annoying and you want to get rid of her, but the whole reason you don't like her is why? So let me help you, you keep pushing me away and not allowing me to help you. Though I don't have much experience in this field either, I know what heartbreak feels like."

[isobel daniella caulfield]

i am not determined to push you away. do i really need a reason to not like her? you know the reason that i don't like her. i have told you this, and it is the whole reason i drank too much at that god forsaken wedding that jared talked me into going. how are you going to help me? no one can help...this is just something that isn't getting better and i don't know what to do.

[dereck michael nolan]

"Well, you keep doing it. And yes, it's obvious that you don't like her, but for the reason of dating someone you like? Can you really blame that on her? It was more like all of his fault. If you just let me help you, I can. It can get better, if you just let it. Just admit to yourself that it's over, and that's your first step of moving on."

[isobel daniella caulfield]

i am not. and that is not the reason. i have a problem with her because she basically ripped his heart out and stomped all over it and then decides one day that she wanted him back. that is what i have a problem with. how do you go about helping someone that is helpless? that's the problem. i know he loves me too. so how do i just let that go? i don't know how to do this, dereck and it is killing me.