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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 23, 2011 2:00:28 GMT -5
okay, i know i'm obviously not vidette, and probably the last person you want to hear from at all, but i'm going to ask you to please not hang up on me.
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Post by shayne veronica brennan on Jan 23, 2011 2:02:26 GMT -5
hey vid.... fuck. give me one reason not too.
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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 23, 2011 2:07:19 GMT -5
Because I've been avoiding you and this for far too long, and this is really the only way that i could think of to get in touch with you. And if you hang up, you're just going to have to see me in person.
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Post by shayne veronica brennan on Jan 23, 2011 2:14:01 GMT -5
well i don't want to see you, because honestly i have no idea what i would do. so what do you want?
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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 23, 2011 23:31:23 GMT -5
see, i thought this might be the better option. and i just wanted a chance to talk to you shayne. there's a lot to be said, and i realized that i can't go without at least trying. you're far too important to vidette and jem for me not to try.
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Post by shayne veronica brennan on Jan 23, 2011 23:34:20 GMT -5
" well here's your chance. this is the only one you will get, because i don't understand why in the hell it took this long. but by all means satan, say what you need too "
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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 23, 2011 23:48:05 GMT -5
satan? [chuckles] surprisingly, that's a new one... but really, shayne, i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i lied, and manipulated you, and more sorry than you know for hurting you. i'm also sorry that it took so long, but...i never expected that you would listen to me, and i know that saying 'sorry' a couple of times doesn't make up for anything that i did, but i owed you an apology.
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Post by shayne veronica brennan on Jan 23, 2011 23:58:01 GMT -5
i'm glad you get a laugh out of this. so are you sorry for nearly ruining my relationship with my best friend? are you sorry about any of it because you are genuinely sorry or because you feel that you need to say it because of vidette or jem? because honestly i don't think you mean a damn word that comes out of your mouth. you owed me a fucking apology how long ago kaler?! it just took you until now to realize it.
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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 24, 2011 0:10:04 GMT -5
[short pause] whether you choose to believe it or not, i am genuinely sorry for everything that i did to you. and i'm not dense enough to have not known i've owed you an apology all along. i already told you why i waited, why it was so difficult to even try to get you to hear me out.
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Post by shayne veronica brennan on Jan 24, 2011 0:16:02 GMT -5
yeah, sure. the only reason you are sorry is because of vid, and i know that. you know that too, but whatever. it wasn't you that had a hand around your throat. [ pauses ] no you really didn't say why it's so difficult. but whatever, as long as i don't have to see you.
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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 24, 2011 0:23:41 GMT -5
look, i am doing this for me, because i am truly sorry. vidette and jem play into this because i know how hard this mess is on the two of them, and i know that's all my fault too. i knew that there wasn't a good chance of this working, but i needed you to hear it, just once. it was difficult because i had no idea how in the hell i was going to get you to listen to me, shayne. i know you don't want to hear any of this, and i thought i was doing the better thing by not forcing it, but that wasn't working either.
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Post by shayne veronica brennan on Jan 24, 2011 0:40:12 GMT -5
yeah i know it's hard on them, but they also don't let me in the same room as you. but if you were so damn sorry you should have done this when vidette wasn't in the picture. no there isn't really a good chance of me forgiving you. you had your hand around my fucking neck choking me kaler. that isn't something that goes away and is forgotten. [ pauses ] you thought it was okay to wait how fucking long because you weren't forcing this on me? and you think stealing my best friend's phone is the best way to get me to listen to you?! i don't want to even hear your voice or see your face! you suck kaler, you just suck.
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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 24, 2011 0:50:06 GMT -5
how do you think me being with vidette makes this any less sincere? this isn't about her right now; it's about me telling you that i'm sorry. i'm not asking you to forgive me, or to forget what i did. i would never expect those things. [pauses also] then tell me, how was i supposed to go about this? was i supposed to follow you that night and tell you how sorry i was? because i'm sure that would have ended well. call you from my phone? you wouldn't have answered. and you know what, i'm well aware of what terrible person i am. i guess i should say that i'm sorry for that as well.
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Post by shayne veronica brennan on Jan 24, 2011 1:11:39 GMT -5
how do i know if vidette didn't put you up with this? for all i know you she could be standing right beside you making sure you sound sincere. but when you apologize that normally means that you are rooting for a simple phrase and it isn't going to happen. i don't forgive you, and i don't believe you. [ sighs ] i don't know. you are a smart boy, or at least you used to be a smart boy. and you are right. following me would have been a bad idea, i might have actually tried to run you over. and yes calling me from your phone would have gotten you no where. i don'e even know why i am still on the phone with you. my best friend deserves better than you, better than a manipulative fucker who doesn't give a shit about anyone besides himself. it is so nice to know that you care about the marks that were on my neck, that my coworkers saw, that my friends saw, and i couldn't tell them what happened except for vidette. not until now. you ruined so much for me kaler. and you think an i'm sorry is going to fix it.
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Post by kaler ryan scott on Jan 24, 2011 1:17:21 GMT -5
i assure you that vidette isn't standing here. she's your best friend and you can ask her and find out for yourself that she had nothing to do with this. you think that i don't know she doesn't deserve better? and i know that saying a word doesn't make up for everything that i ruined. nothing will erase that for you or for me. i don't know if apologizing in this case holds any value, but i had to at least try to do something.
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